Happy 3rd Birthday Joseph  / Laura Emmerson (Mummy)

Well here we are again another year has passed without you and I am struggling to imagine my gorgeous baby boy as a three year old child!! I expect that you would be just like Lewis at that age and that between the two of you you would be up to all sorts of mischief had you been here.

Every year that passes without you is hard but what I find the hardest is the fact that you are a whole year further away. I remember when we first lost you I was terrified of forgetting all of the details of your birth every line on your face every tiny piece of you from your head down to your toes. I suppose one thing that I have learned in these three years is that I will NEVER forget you and that all of those memories of you are firmly embedded in my heart.

So much has changed in this past year Joseph and there is no way of knowing what life would have been like had you been here. Me and Daddy are no longer together but between us we are trying our best for Lewis to keep our family strong. I often feel as though I have let you down but I suppose more than anyone you will understand that sometimes things dont work out the way you had hoped. They do say that everything happens for a reason and although I still struggle with that on a daily basis I am hoping that one day I will realise why life panned out the way that it did.

Today we will bring your balloons and flowers to the cemetery and wish you a happy birthday. Lewis has counted down the days until your birthday he still cant believe that his baby brother is going to be three! He misses you so much Joseph and talks about you every single day. Nanna and Grandad have bought you a beautiful mobile to hang in your tree and so many people are thinking of you today and wishing you a happy birthday. You are so loved and so missed I hope you know that.

Have a wonderful birthday up in heaven little man know that we would give anything to be with you and that you are always always ALWAYS in our thoughts and hearts.

Love and miss you all of the stars in the sky

Mummy and Lewis xxxxxxxx

 

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Happy 2nd birthday to our precious little boy  / Laura (Mummy)

Words dont seem enough to give you for your 2nd birthday Joseph. It breaks my heart that we cant be with you on your special day, or give you presents and throw you a party and look at you and see what a wonderful little boy you have become. It feels so little to take flowers to your grave, send you balloons up to the skies and tell you how much you are loved and missed.

I cant believe that two whole years have passed since you came into the world and changed everything in an instant. You may never have taken a breath but you made such a huge impact on the world. So many people think of you and love and miss you so much, there isnt a day goes by when your big brother doesnt speak of you or mummy and daddy dont shed a tear for you. You were so perfect and I have no doubt in my mind that you would be the most beautiful two year old, just like your big brother.

Everyone told us that time is a healer and perhaps some days I am beginning to think it is true. There are times we find ourselves smiling and laughing again and then other days the huge Joseph shaped hole in our lives consumes our every thought. We were so happy when you sent us a baby brother or sister for you, and yet again so devastated when they were cruelly taken away. I hope that you are looking after eachother up there and know how much we wish you were all here with us.

Wherever you are, we hope that you are happy and healthy and proud of your mummy and daddy and lewis for how far we have come. Two years has felt like a lifetime without you and yet I think we have surprised everyone, and ourselves, by coming through it stronger than ever. We may appear to be a family of three, but in our hearts we will always be a family of four. You will never be forgotten.

Love you all of the stars in the sky Joseph Allan, missing you with every heart beat.

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What an angel  / Charlotte Smith

My heart is broken for you sweetheart. Your little boy truly is an angel.

 

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Im so sorry- angel in heaven  / Claire
I am so sorry to hear of your loss, the pain must be unbelivable. You are an incredbly brave woman.I am so sorry God choose him to tkae to heaven so early, but Joesph is in heaven and watching over you xxx Close

Happy Birthday sweetheart  / Louise Simmons (a friend )
Dearest Joseph

You don't know me, but I know your mum.  She's a wonderful lady you know, a very special mum.  She loves you so much and is really sad because you're not with her.  I know you want her to be happy and she's trying to find her way along the path to happiness, it's just taking her a while as her love for you runs deep.

I can't imagine how it must feel to lose someone  you love, especially one so innocent and young.  My heart goes out to your mum and each time I hear from her, my heart is heavy.  I wish I could just make it all better for her, take some of the pain away. 

Anyway...I've come along to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY Joseph!  Special special little boy, who means so much to so many.  Many that on the whole haven't even met your mummy, daddy or brother, but love you none the less.

Thinking of you little Joe.

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Happy Birthday Joseph  / Emma Jacques (Friend of Mummy )
Happy 1st Birthday Joseph, I hope you are having fun in the Angel clouds today. Keep an eye on your Mummy, she is a very special person (but I'm sure you know that!!). 
Hope you're having fun, and not causing too much havoc up in the clouds!
Happy Birthday beautiful boy
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Always in our hearts  / Siobhan Wightman
Joseph you will always remain in our hearts. Never forgotten. A special little angel,  your star will always shine brightly.

Happy Birthday!!!!!!!!!!

Look after your mummy, she is a wonderful person.

love,

Siobhan xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Close

Still thinking of you X  / Cara Homer (Friend of mummys )
Still thinking of you and sending kisses up to heaven.

Cara, Matt, lucy and William 
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Dear Joseph  / Em Tiller
Dear Joseph,
I have never met your Mummy or Daddy or your older brother Lewis, but my son and you know each other as you were both in the waiting room at the same time. Your Mummy and I are both members of the Aug 06 AN on Babyworld. Little boy, on the passing of your 10 month birthday, please know that you are missed and loved by so many that never saw you in person. I believe that you are watching and waiting and having the patience of an angel, you will look over those that love you most. Your mother is an inspiration to us all. Sleep soundly Little Boy. With fondest love Em. Chris & George xxx Close

Dear Joseph  / Mummy (Mummy)

Please dont be angry with me for not writing on here often, I keep your diary every day but time does not allow for both. Your big brother keeps mummy very busy, he is always up to mischief as I am sure you are up in Heaven.

Ten months has passed since I held you in my arms now Joseph, and yet I still know every single line of your face and when I close my eyes I can remember how warm you felt and the softness of your skin in my arms. I wonder what you would be like now, aged ten months. I am sure you would be a bundle of fun with laughs and smiles for me and daddy and Lewis. I wonder what you and Lewis would be like together - double trouble I imagine!! Whatever you would be like Joseph, I wish that I could only know. I would give everything in the world to have you here and yet I know that will never happen.

People tell me that time is a healer, but you know your mummy and she doesnt believe that for a minute! The pain and the sadness at losing you is not getting easier. There are moments when I feel as though maybe things are starting to get better, and then something happens - the cry of a baby, a pregnant lady or a painful memory - and it all comes crashing back down to square one and I feel as though I will never smile again. It is just so unfair that you had to leave us and I cant understand why. WHY YOU???

I hope that wherever you are my beautiful little boy, that you are happy. That is all I ever wanted for you. I love you so much Joseph Allan Emmerson and please remember that every second of every day is filled with thoughts of you. 

Love you all the stars in the sky

mummy

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Words are not enough...  / Jeni Goodhand (mummy's friend )
Darling Joseph, 

I cannot believe it is 10 months since your mummy & daddy were told you were just too perfect for this world.  I am so sorry it has taken so long to write a message to you.  Words just don't seem good enough to say how much you touched my life even though I never met you.  

I feel like I know you so well because I shared the time you grew inside your mummy & became friends with her.  She is a wonderful lady who, even though she's hurting so very much herself, has given me lots and lots of support because my little boy Oscar was very poorly when he was born and she amazes me every day how she continues to help others.  I still remember the day mummy had to share the heartbreaking news with us that you had gone to play with the angels, I felt the cries erupt from inside me and could only imagine how your mummy must have felt.

Joseph, you were just too perfect for this world and so had to move on to a better place before we had a chance to get to know you better.  You'll always hold a very special place in my heart and every night Oscar and I wave goodnight to your star.

Shine brighly little prince.

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Angel / A. Friend
The footprints of an angel are love,
And where there is love,
Miraculous things can happen.
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A bigger Plan  / Frank

There was a bigger plan right from the beginning, u were born an angel and will continue to be an angel... and guide your big brother... Have peace....A brighter light is shining because of you...

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Joseph / Kym Dunmore (Friend of your mummy )
Joseph, you were so incredibly beautiful and perfect! i wish i could have met you darling angel! rest peacefully! Your in my thoughts and prayers, look after my little angel for me! Lots of Love, kym xxx Close

Joseph / Nicola Emmerson (Aunty)
Sleep in peace baby Joseph, you are thought of everyday. Love always Aunty Nicola and Uncle Andrew xxxxx PSDF xxxxxxxxx Close

beautiful baby boy  / Corrine Corrineg78 (mummys friend )
Joseph you touched so many hearts in the short time you were on this earth you were just too preciuos to stay here with your mummy and daddy and your big brother.
You truly are a perfect amazing little boy look down on your mummy, daddy and lewis from he clouds and keep them safe and strong.
Your mummy is a very strong and amazing lady and i think that comes partly from you being in her life play safe little man and shine brightly in the sky xxx Close

You are beautiful  / Siobhan (Shevy) Wightman (Friend of Josephs Mummy )
Dear Little Joseph,

The most beautiful boy in the world. Perfect little hands, perfect little feet. You are a little angel. Look down on your mummy, daddy and brother and look after them. May your star shine brightly in ours paths for ever and ever. You have touched so many hearts, and will always be remembered.

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Sleep tight beautiful Joseph  / Jaine Cunningham (friend of Mummy )
Dear Joseph,
You are such a very special little boy.  You are beautiful.  It is so sad that things like this have to happen but one thing for sure is that there is a beautiful little boy resting in a beautiful place shining down on his Mummy, Daddy and big brother.  Keep shining on all three of them sweetheart especially your big brother and remember that lots of people love you.  Play nicely with the angels and have lots of fun.
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For Joseph  / Mummy And Daddy
For Joseph

It feels like only yesterday
We held you in our arms
So tiny and so beautiful
Enchanted by your charms.
Perfect fingers, toes and face,
We could not help but weep,
That our precious little baby boy
Was born so fast asleep.


We never felt your first breath,
Or heard your new born cries,
And as we held you in our arms
You never opened up your eyes,
Our hearts are truly broken now
But the fact will always remain
That despite the hurt, the pain and tears
We are so glad that you came.

We feel robbed now of your future
And hold on to the past
8 months is all we had with you
And a lifetime that must last,
Your’ll never grow your first tooth,
Or show us your first smile,
We’ll never hear your first words,
But you’ll be with us all the while.

We had mapped out your whole lifetime
All the things that we would do,
Watching you grow as the years passed,
Just You, Me, Daddy and Lew.
We will always be a family
And we will miss you all our lives,
Lewis talks about you daily
He says you’re sleeping in the skies.

For us now time is standing still,
An empty cradle, arms and heart,
We may not have had a lifetime,
But we loved you from the start.
I will always be your Mummy
And you will always be our son,
And one day we’ll be together
When our time on earth is done.

You play safe now up in Heaven,
With the angels up above,
And every day we’ll miss you
And send you all our love.
So go and dance amongst the stars,
Sleep well now on your cloud,
You are our son FOREVER,
And you made us very proud.

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